focus

it's so easy to lose.

there's so much going on in everyone else's life and keeping up with everyone else can help us forget to focus. need confirmation? just log onto* facebook or twitter or own a cell phone (or do all three). everyone's up to something. unfortunately, so much of the story we're telling each other isn't that important in the long run.

just brushed my teeth
i've decided that red is my fav color after all

or really obscure nonsense like:

i'm so over that!

and yet i go and read and read and read. 2 hours later, i wonder what happened to the time i'd set aside to revise some writing.

i think i'll begin a "no fb after 8pm" rule. i'll let you know how it goes. and btw, i'm fully aware that two icons died today, one certainly bigger than the other. yes, i've listend to his music, watched his videos, wished i had the opportunity to see him perform live. when i was little, i wanted to one day be as famous as him. i've got many good memories related to him. the best part of piano lessons at about age 7 was being able to watch his videos with my piano teacher's older son while my sister was having her lesson.

and what will i do with all this? i'll keep on remembering the good. i'll jam to the big tunes every now and then. but most of all, i'll remember that i've got 1 life and i must live it fully. and at the end of the day, if crowds flock to the hospital i die in, i hope it's because i've done a whole leap of God-business in this messy world.

peace.

* i wasn't sure whether to write "logon to" or "log onto" since "login" has become normative...man, language is a beast...